Wednesday, March 01, 2006
I am now officially a graduate.I have been checking my email regularly for the past 2 weeks to check on my results, but it seem that curtin's Oasis had not been updated. The results that i had previously still look the same with no changes, and there were no new results that i have been hoping and praying that i'd at least pass.Since the semester in Curtin started this week and i still had not received any results of a paper which i had to take early February, i decided to email the person in charge of that faculty, saying that i need to know whether i had passed or failed and if its the latter, i will need to make arrangements like re-enrolling for the unit as an offshore student from Singapore.And i just received a reply, saying that i had passed. Alhamdulillah. Another prayer being answered. All praises to God.You see, early this year i wasn't really a graduate yet because i failed one unit and was granted a supp, which was very rare because in Curtin, its very unlikely that we'll be granted a supp. According to Curtin, a Supp is a privilage (alamak, i dunno how to spell), not a right. So, we'll be granted a supp only on very specific reasons. Some might get a 49/100 for a certain unit, and still would not get a supp, so they wll have to repeat the unit again the next semester. Therefore, again, Alhamdulillah, i was granted a supp instead of repeating the unit in a new semester.So, with work, and some emotional problems and time constraints, i had to juggle with my revision. Since this is the first time that i'm seating for a supp my whole life, i didn't know what to expect. According to a friend, the supp paper will be very similar to the finals and doable if we prepare ourselves necesarily. Prepare myself necesarily was what i did. I tried out the most tedious problems, made sure i know each and every step to the solution of my problematic area and made sure i know inside out of that unit. I prepared it as though i was preparing for my finals concentrationg on the topics that was covered in the final exams. I was confident when i walked into the exam room. I was ready to pour everything out onto the exam paper until i saw the question paper.I swear when i read the questions, i could cry. I was expecting something else, but i was backfired.How was i to know that a supplementary paper would cover what we've learnt throughout the semester including the first few topics, which i had ommitted 100% from my revision?It was such a effortlessly easy paper, but i couldn't do it. I was so dissapointed with myself coz at that time i could only see me going for night classes once a week after work, having to repeat the whole unit again.Nevertheless, i tried, skipping the first 6 questions concentrating on the last 4 questions which was on the topics that i had concentrated on my revision. The tedious questions that i prepared wasn't even being asked so the memory space in my brain consist of useless things. During the 2 hour paper i thought really hard, trying to remember the fundamentals of that unit. Trying to remember the formulas and steps that i hadn't focus on since months ago. Even though my confidence level was at the lowest of the lowest, i just scribble whatever i can remember, hoping to get some marks here and there.At the end of the paper i was angry at myself for not being to attempt that paper confidently. It was one paper which i would categorise as easy peasy but i just couldn't do it. Most of the time, i was just staring at the paper staring back at me.Well, at least i tried out. And now, i am so, so glad that i cleared that paper.That was the most difficult easy paper i had ever done.Usually its either easy, easy or difficult but manageable, but that particular paper was just too easy but hard because only 35% of what i studied came out.I won't be surprised if i just managed a pass. I dun know what is my exact mark, coz it will only show a P.What's most important, i passed. Alhamdulillah.***
Earlier this evening, after watching Detik, i went to my sister and said,"Kak, adik rasa adik nak kerja jadi buruh kasar la"
My sister laughed and said "Habis nanti nak angkat wheelbarrow pun tak kuat, macam mana nak kerja jadi buruh kasar?"
According to Detik, perkerja buruh kasar earn a basic salary of $1200.
According to me, the work that i'm doing now earned me mush less than that. I just received my pay check yesterday and the amount stated was just so... demoralising to look at. It was way below a buruh kasar's basic pay. Way, way below, mind you.
Sometimes, i feel i wanna be a bus driver. Cool right, when i get to drive a big double decker bus. Or a MRT driver, then i can get to say, "Attention dear passengers, this train will be delayed for a few minutes due to some technical faults. Sorry for any inconvenience caused"
Ok, i wanna be a pilot. But cannot, coz i dun have perfect eyesight. Air stewardess? Also cannot, coz i dun have the flawless skin and the height.
I think i'm better off being a housewife. But cannot also, coz i have to be married before i can call myself a housewife, which will not be happening any time or at all coz not i'm in a phase of distrusting the species called men. I think i'm going through a phase where i dun wanna go to any weddings or engagement stuff or anythingh of that sort.
I'll just keep this job till i can get hold of another job.
Penat tau baca classifieds, sampai kero mata!
See! the paragraph is being funny again!
lynn-delysa just penned that down at 9:14 PM
