Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Remember the chair that the cat pee-ed on because i forgot to put the plastic cover back on?

I bought a new chair at IKEA yesterday. Yes the exact same chair. I felt guilty for forgetting to put the plastic cover, and yesterday, when i wanted to throw some things in the big bin, i saw the padding of the chair in it. Owner had thrown it away. I became more guilty. I thought the chair can't be used anymore coz he threw the padding, so, that triggered me to buy the chair. Chatted with Erni, and asked if she knew the way to IKEA, and she did. And off we went.

Upon reaching there, i bought the chair and Erni saw something that attracted her attention, a coffee table and bought it. She's gonna use it as her study table. Its a very nice table, and its cheap, and the best thing, is, she can bring it back to Singapore at the end of the year.

Yes, so that was yesterday. I bought a chair to show that i really felt bad for what happened. I even attached a card on the box for them. And when i told them that i had something for them, they were surprised that i had actually bought it. They had went to a foam shop and asked to alter-make a new foam foro the chair which was still in the car. They said that i shouldn't have bought it, and that its not my fault that the cat pee-ed on it, but, i still see it came down to me, IF i had remembered to put the plastic cover back on, the cat wouldn't have pee-ed. Yes, ok..i know...but at least by buying the chair it could help me ease the feeling of guilt in me. So that i feel better. Now, i try not to sit on the chair coz i'm afraid that i might forget the plastic cover again...

I dunno why i felt so emo lately. even tiny little things made me hurtful. Like last weekend, housemate ida had asked if i wanted to watch vcd, Someone Like You, and i took a look at it and thought it was interesting. She was watching cooking show and i was washing the toilet and cleaning my room, i told her i'll watch with her when she's ready and she said she wanted to watch the cooking show since i was busy with my cleanings..then she went online, and did her normal surfing...after some time, she said she was sleepy, and then went to sleep, which i didn't mind at all, coz that mean i can continue doing my cleaning stuff. Then on sunday, while preparing lucnh for hubby, she asked hubby what movie he wanted to watch, she mentioned 2 malay movie titles, and then one english title, and then the Someone Like You title, and i was like, hey, are't u suppose to watch that with me? i just sat in my room quietly, feeling sad..While they were eating and having lunch, and watching the dvd, (which i tot was the someone like you show) she didn't call me to tell me or to ask if i wanted to watch it, i felt hurt and i even cried. I can't believe that i actually cried!!!! Crazy girl me..

And then later i realised that i had cried for nothing because they didnt actually watch that Someone Like You dvd, they watched Just Married.. I'm so silly

Today, after i finished class at 5:30 which is already dark here, as usual i went straight to my room, waiting for them for dinner.. while waiting i chatted with cousin. Then 7-ish, i heard them in the kitchen. And the next thing i knew, she called out " Linda, kita makan dulu eh?" I was like, ok, i waited for u fpr nothing...Ok..ok..so she didn't know that i was waiting, but we always eat dinner together what... And i was hurt agian...but i wasn't silly enough to cry...
joined them halfway for dinner...

what's with me being all so sensitive?? Little things made me hurt...Little tiny weeny little things.. First was the birthday present, then the dvd, then the chair, then dinner... Wat's next?All that i think i can only blame it on... PMS? Yes, PMS i think, is the culprit..

I'm suffering from PMS...Somebody save meeeee....