Friday, November 10, 2006

I wanna upload my raya pics into fotopages, but my sister had transfered all the pics from her camera into a cd rom. That should be easier, yes, but not when your computer cannot read the cd.. (understand?) If i wanna hear any songs from any cd that i have, i wont be able to coz there's something wrong my the computer. Alternatively, i can copy the pics from the cd to my laptop, save it in a thumb drive before copying and pasting it into my computer. But, i think thats just too much work!

Raya, raya. Why do i get the feeling that i was not as esthusiastic about this raya as compared to my previous 26 years? To me, this year, hari raya this time, is just to look nice, and visit ur relatives and sit on their sofa and smile and look pretty. Never mind they dun talk to u, coz they won't have anything to talk about anyway. Come to think of it, there's still many houses that we have yet to visit. I still have not gone to my grandmother's place or my eldest aunt's place. I dunno why. I dunno what's going on.

I wanna talk abt this boy whom i know i'm related with family ties, (i just dunno how), who will always come to our place every year for as long as i can remember. He'd made me feel embarrassed. He and his family. He's in sec 3 this year. He's a relative of mine and i dun even know his name. Lets call him H.

This has been going on every year. You see, he called me somethingthat made me feel so malu. It began a few years back when i hadn't leave for Perth. I think some 3 or 4 years back. One of those hari raya years, this boy and his family came over and his mom immediately meet my mum and said, "Cik tahu, tadi si H asyik tanya aje, ibu kita nak pergi rumah kakak cantik eh?" When my mum heard that, she said, "Iye? kakak cantik tu siapa? tinggal mana?" And his mum will say, "Ni la rumah kakak cantik, tu, *while pointing at me* dia panggil kakak cantik." I wasn't there when that conversation was on going, i was busy entertaining other too many guests at my house on first day of raya, but when my mum called me out and told me, there and then, i was like, *wide eyed, huh??*, I mean how do expect me to react??

When i was away in Perth, my mum/sis would call during those 2 years, saying "tadi H tanya, mana kakak cantik tu?" Seriously, i dunno how to react. I just laughed it off.

Then, lst week, they came coz they got the wrong information that we were not home during the first day of raya, and my mum invited them over when we bumped into them at one of our realtives' place. Arrived, his mum said, "Dari tadi H ingatkan, ibu, dah janji, jgn lupa pergi rumah kakak cantik tau.."

My sister named his as my secret admirer. "Tadi adik punya secret admirer bila nampak adik, dia gembira sekali, macam in awe gitu.." haha.. Well, i should feel honoured considering i consider myself plain looking, and to have someone to call me by that name, it was...unexpected. But yeah, thats just him. Maybe something is wrong with his eyes.

Anyway, i went to Mardhiah's open house just now. It was great to see Rafida n boyfriend, Shida n fiance. Like i told Rafida, orang2 lain sume datang dgn *abang*, i datang dgn my parents.

I think i should shut myself and stay at home and not go to to this functions. Coz, i'll either be there, on my own, or with my parents. Like, say tmrw, i have an invitation to a housewarming cum hari raya open house of one of my sec school friend, which i wanna go, but then, who do i go with? All others will be going with their family/partners/fiance/boyfriend/husbands. Its so difficult to find someone who's not in one of the category above. I dun wanna go alone to a crowded house, finding a place to seat at one corner with no one to entertain me. So, i decided not to go. Sorry. This is another phase i'm going through. But the engagement tmrw, i'm braving myself to attend, considering the fact that i've spend most of my time in Perth with her. We met nearly everyday, we were close, so, ya, i'm going to the engagement, i just make sure that they guy side had done what they're suppose to do, i.e. the sarung cincin and all that pantun2 stuff..

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U know what, my sister astually told me this, "Adik, u need to eat more coz u look like a sicko!"
I got that a lot this year.
Especially a lot frm my wonders each time i meet them. And my aunts, and cousins..And i got that today too. I was skinny then, i'm skinnier now.I think they're right. I need to eat more. I dun like the way i look in pictures now. I look scrawny. My jeans are all too loose. My pants too. How ah?

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Before i finally end, i think there's a little pattern at home.

Everytime i were to come home late, my dad would wait up till i get home/ Whetehr its 12 or one. He would stay up in the living room watching tv. He did that when i went out with the wonders last monday. He did that when i broke fast outside and came home a little late last month. He did that when i went for the bbq with the wonders months ago. Why?? *rolls eyes* And its really late, he'd call and ask when i'm coming home, and wait for me downstairs. When i'm back, then, he would go to bed. Then he will not talk to me. You all punya parents/father ada macam tu tak? Takde apa-apa, just wondering je.

Now da midnight, my sister not back yet tau, And they went to sleep already. I'm up waiting for her..hehe

Ok da. Habis. I dunno what i;m babbling abt in this blog also.