Saturday, November 04, 2006

My entry back then, a year ago: 6 November 2005

I was ecstatic.

No entry, about 3 years ago, same Hari Raya period, way before i left for Perth, December 2003. Something similar happened.

I was ecstatic too.

Current year, same hari raya period, i am hopeless, heartless, feeling-less. Nothing ecstatic. Nothing'll happen.

I keet getting wedding invitations. My primary/secondary school friends emailed/sms-ed me of their wonderful news. I get lots of I'm getting married..your card's with so and so.. or so and so's getting married, ur card's with me.

And all i manage to do was smile, shrugged off and thought, "oh, ok" and that's it, where i used to be so delighted to hear so and so's getting married.

No, no.. I'm not sad.

I'm not sad that everyone's getting married and i'm not. Nothing of that sort. Nothing.
N-o-t-h-i-n-g. NONE.

Its the final countdown before i lose him to someone else forever.

*shrugs*


I know i shouldn't be even thinking of creating an entry like this!
*What is wrong with you??*