Wednesday, March 29, 2006

"She got home from work and suddenly her parents told her that someone came earlier while she was at work, asking for her hand in marriage.

The parents were too happy, that they'd accepted the proposal which the daughter was totally unaware of, and that the so called solemnization would be done the next day.

Awed, the girl was just too stunned to say anything, what more to object. Awed and stunned not because she was excited and happy about the sudden proposal she just received, but she was just overwhelmed with the feeling of shocked and confusion.

Worse of all, she was mending her broken heart, broken by the guy who had had cheated on her and was already engagged to someone else, planning to get married soon.

Nevertheless the wedding still go on in some kind of place which looks like a hotel+ shopping centre, she was still unable to say anything. (I think she was mute). She was there at the place surrounded by people she didn't know. Saw glimpse of him, but did not go up to him, and keeping her distance away from him. The solemnisation went on, she heard it, and thats just it. They were married but did not see each other on their wedding day coz the solemnisation was held in another room, about two/three rooms away from her.

No picture taking, no bride kissing the groom's hand, no bride seeing the groom.

She couldn't understand her feelings. She wasn't happy and she was just not smiling that day. The only persons smiling were her parents and his parents. She didn't know if he was smiling coz she couldn't be bothered to look at him, coz he was just so far away.

Time to go home, she went home with her parents. Nothing much to change coz there wasn't any fancy wedding outfits. From noon till night, the groom wasn't there.

She did her usual routine by checking her email which she had not been doing for quite some time. An email got her attention. RE: About tmrw. It was from him, dated the day before.
The content of the email was : Please say no so we dun hafta do it tmrw.

She switched off the computer, and went to sleep alone.
Feeling confused."

And i woke up feeling confused.
Oh God, what a dream.
That's one weird dream i had last night.
It was weird because the main character was me.

It was weird coz it kept playing in my head the whole day today, so i thought, by blogging about it, it would go away.

I hope it'd go away, wishing it will never come true.

Come to think of it, its 8 months to the wedding.

And i'm still so sad....