Thursday, August 25, 2005

Ok...

Earleir this evening, i've got an invitation from Ariana, then Diana to go to this place: http://www.kalbarri.com/kalbarri/index.html

Its about 5 hours drive from Perth and there will be 2 cars and 8 of us, including me if i were to go. According to Diana, after much interogating on wat to do there, what will we find there, where will we stay there, who will be going there, when to go there and how to get there, the 3 days 2 nights getaway will involve snorkelling and sand boarding among other things. And i know that i won't be driving, all i just have to do is just sit back and relax at either Faizal's or the other guy's car. While still contemplating whether to go or not, then it hit me, just like that.

Decision made... And i decided to forego this trip till dunno when.. When someone offers the same offer as this one where i dun have to do anything but just follow the plan where accomodation and transportation have been taken care of... I like!

While chatting with Diana and dear cousin simultaneously, the latter conversation somehow or rather help me decide on whether or not to go... because...

Apparently things are not going well at home.
And i'm not suppose to know about this.
But i know already, just a few minutes ago...
And now, i have to pretend that i don't know what i knew.
And pretend that everything's fine at home, when that's not actually the case, until further notice.
And pretend to put those worried feelings that i have away coz they are not suppose to know that i know, and not suppose to make me worry, and not suppose to know that i'm worried when the fact right now, is that i'm dead worried.

And now, i can just hope and pray that everything will be fine back home.

I called home before the chatting and before knowing that things are not well, and they didn't mention anything. Everyone sounds a-ok and cheerful and all.
Just that my sister kept saying that if there's any cheap one week flight, she told me to go get it and come home... And i thought that was weird... coz its one week and she wants me to come home?

But now i can see the picture coz how can everything be a-ok when i was just told that someone who is very dear to me was sick 2 days ago and couldn't get up and kept vomiting and was always feeling giddy and had a pain on one side of her head and later had to go for a check up at the hospital this afternoon and wait for the results?
That doesn't sound a-ok to me...
Right?
You tell me...

You won't get to read this post till later date coz you're not supposed to know that i know, so that's why i decided to change the url of my blog to something else so that u can't get access to it till later. Sorry if it caused u much frustration...

Till then...

Ya Allah, please give me and my family the strenght to go through the test that You've tried upon us.. Amin...